Okay, I just want to vent and this is going to be straight from my head to the computer.
Just imagine you are a very pretty girl and everyone likes you….just imagine that you are popular and you like how you look…then one day a “disease” like my own cystic acne takes over your face and your life.
I use to love to go out in public, I use to talk on the phone, I use to visit my friends (I had friends).
Now, since my acne condition of at least six years:
- I don’t go out in public
- I do not talk on the phone
- I do not have any friends
Now given those Facts that I am in “seclusion” because I choose to do this, why do not others RESPECT that? In other words, if the phone rings my (lets say they are my ( room mates )
make me get the phone, I tell them no and they refuse to get it. I just don’t want to talk to anyone!
I do not want to answer calls, or call back anyone.
If I so choose to then I will.
I do not go in public, and my spouse makes me RIDE IN THE CAR…for what? To humiliate me?! He doesn’t get it, even if I don’t want to go – I have to sit in the car and wait for him to shop or what have you. That’s BULL__________________!
My friends are being build online, why? Well, no one seems to JUDGE me..they cannot see me or my face. I am comfortable and relaxed and I can be ME!
When I started this blog I was going to just keep doing writing challenges and etc but now it’s taken a turn for what I call the “2012 Jackie GET REAL” blog!
I am so sick of others NOT understanding ME…and my condition. It’s all about ME ME ME – others…that is going to have to stop.
I am starting a new job on Monday, and yes I have to work or I would not leave my house. I am praying for the courage and strength to accomplish this, with great fears…and with the added money get to a surgeon to fix my face!
Am I wrong to rant?
Please comment below, I do not wish to bring anyone down, I just have to start addressing what is important to me and my feelings.
Thanks for coming by and reading my rant.